7 Years

what a difference 7 years makes. ups and downs, ins and outs. people go through so many changes over the course of one year...let alone 7. unfortunately, they all hit me. and all at the same time. even though each change was gradual, they all kind of came to a head at once. imagine that you are a car and you hit a nail in the road which causes a slow leak in your tire. in addition, your already-leaky oil tank is now down to almost nothing. your gas light has come on, your spark plugs are clogged with gunk and need replacing and your timing belt is hanging on by a thread of rubber. now imagine you hit a bump in the road and everything goes south. the tire goes flat, the oil tank is bone dry and your engine locks up, the gas tank is now on fumes, the spark plugs aren't giving off that spark and the timing belt is now being flung out underneath the car and you've rolled over it, leaving it in the middle of the street behind you. well, that's what it feels like has happened to me. all of these changes that have happened to me have come back to haunt me; stopping me dead in my tracks and forcing me to confront them. i've been harboring a lot of stress from these changes for the past few months and it wasn't until a few hours ago that i as able to take the car into the shop and verbalize the issues to the mechanic and explain how they have affected me. i held on to these changes for fear of change itself. he indicated that the car is definitely damaged, but can be restored. it's not completely fixed yet, but some work was done so far and i'm excited for the maintenance. it may be in the shop for a while, but it will be whole again and will be back in full force, ready for it's next stop on this road called life.